Little and Often

So much to say...what a wonderful, emotion filled, thought provoking day i have had. Oh i dont know where to begin...God is so amazing for so many reason - this year i have so much peace and i think its because crazily, i am trying to throw myself out of the boat and start walking on the water and even through its only one leg and one arm that dangling over the side of the boat touching the water. I know that God is seeing the effort and blessing me - COME ON.

So basically i am a little nomadic at the mo ( although i own too much stuff and am far to materialistic to really be nomadic?). My contract on my house finished on Suday and i didnt feel that it was right to get a contract for another house so have 2 offers of two months stay at peoples houses and then we shall see where i will be taken. And then working 2 days a week after my work with Pointed Arrow finished at the end of Dec. I felt God said that i would get the money that i would have got for working for Pointed Arrow each month. And he is so faithful - January money was an overdue pay cheque - Febuary money will be my tax return - COME ON...do not worry about tomorrow (March) because tomorrow is another day.

SO to try and get back to my amazing day today. As i am only working 2 days a week i am filling the rest of my time with volunteer work. Today i had training to work at a night shelter for reguees and asylum seekers - please note for the first time in ages i feel alive, feeling like this is what i am meant to be doing. As i sat there today and wept as i learnt about the horror that is faced by people trying to gain asylum in this country - i realised that there was something that i could do - please Jesus allow me to serve these people. This evening i watched broke back mountain and again weeped with angry and hurt for those who have been discriminated against for their sexuality. And now i am so raw with emotion i can not sleep only write and pray...

There is so much that is wrong and so many people that need help that for a long time i have felt over whelmed by the emortity of it. Unable to pass the feeling of powerlessness i have not be able to serve and help in the way that i should. A lady in our training today said that if we focused on all that is out there it would destroy us, so in fact we can only focus on the little that we can do...

The little that we can do is actually a lot i have started to realise - if God is in everything, every conversation, ever place, ever space then surely i need to start enknowledging him in those places...whether that is being nice to the rude bus driver rather than getting annoyed with him or taking time out for the homeless man that asks for change (funny really that the word for a small amount of money is change...change)! Little and often i reckon...